Last night I dreamed of horses

Last night I dreamed of horses, running towards me on an open field, wild things, tossing their manes in a rhythm of tempestuous waves on the open sea, tails whipping like tattered flags, louder and louder the pulse of primordial drums until I feel the earth trembling beneath my still feet as I wait for them to near. They close in, mob about me, as they’ll tend to do when they see me out on pasture. Coming not for treats as that’s not my thing, but as children vying for attention, of which I still never have enough to satisfy them or myself.

Long noses, round brown eyes and prickly hairs under the round balls of their chins. Their scent a pacifying perfume, a mix up of memories of leather, sweat, and sweet grass. I try to comfort them in turn, a gentle touch on the firm flat space on the side of their necks where my fingers hide beneath the shadow of their manes, or a soothing stroke starting just above their eyes and rubbing in a line down the front of their extended noses, feeling the weight and density of bones beneath, so close to the surface, the skull I am too familiar with after seeing the remains of plenty who have passed before me, with me, near me, in my arms.

I slide onto Crow’s back (clearly a dream, for little as the horse may be, the older I become, the harder mounting bareback becomes) easing my leg over his back and hoisting myself upright with my hands pressing against his withers. There, where I am comfortable, comforted, where I have spent so many hours before. My buttocks firmly planted in the center of his back, a perfect fit, my thighs wrapping around and down in the hollow between scapula and ribs, lower legs draping below his belly, my boots loose and relaxed, suspended as if weightless and barely attached. I reach forward and touch the poll framed between his pointy ears, a window through which I’ve seen so many mountains and trails. I lean further, run my hands down his neck and around in a knotted embrace, my chest to his neck, my nose deep into his mane. And we stand there, nothing more, me on he, my patient horse awaiting word of what I want, and yet I want no more than to be there with him. Soft and smooth and gentle on his warm back while the others mill about, contented simply to be there too.

9 thoughts on “Last night I dreamed of horses

  1. You will give riding on skis a try with me tomorrow, and I will guide you along the river now completely underground and buried beneath new snow. Kick-glide, kick-glide… Giddy-up, skinny skis.
    And I will look (so much) forward to riding on horses with you, for this will be a new experience for me- in the wilds of… Perhaps here in the valley? No, somewhere really wild! Perhaps Creede? Now I will have a new dream…

    • kick-glide and a little bit of “weeeee!”
      not bad, Tricia. I like it.
      if i were a richer woman, i’d buy myself some skis.
      but alas, i’m horse rich, cash poor, and that’s not such a bad place to be either. except my money goes to hay not skis for now.
      but yes… how I can’t wait to share the experience with you… horseback…in Creede.

  2. What a vivid post. I like your dream. I sometimes sit on my horse bareback in real life, quietly daydreaming–though I can no longer swing up on him without something to stand on. Even mounting with a saddle, I must stand him on the low side. Oh well. I am grateful I can still ride. I hope you are reunited with your horses soon.

    • A dream inspired, i am sure, by seeing picture on your blog post of your recent horse rides on dry ground and green grass… I would (would you believe?) miss the snow, but long for (pardon the cliche) greener pastures.

  3. Beautiful and once again I felt like I was experiencing this with you. They did this to me when I was there but I didn’t really know what to think. (That’s the day I was the “walking carrot”. My first lesson learned on the ranch!) Guess they know not to plow right over you, huh, though at the time I wasn’t quite sure. I can still remember the sound and feel of it. That’s a great way to know you are living life!

Thank you for your interest in Gin's writing.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s